- that I had yesterday off and had BIG plans for a fun day with my little man. However, he just wasn't having it. It was a rough day let me tell ya and he tested my patience BIG time. But I still loved spending the day with him and love that he's my little snuggle bunny. He loves his mama somethin' fierce and I love spending my days with him - even when he's cranky!
- this article is amazing. For all you parents who put your kid(s) in daycare...READ it. Thanks to The Lady Okie for originally posting on her blog.
- I've been on the search for some spring/summer shoes. I am ROUGH on shoes so I don't like spending a lot of money them (even when I have spent good money on higher quality shoes they don't last.) I like both of these. So I'm thinking I'll order both and see which I like better and just return the other pair. I wear a lot of skinny pants, dresses and skirts in the spring and summer so I think either option will work.
- I was finally able to run more than 3 miles yesterday and it felt AMAZING. The weather was perfect and my knee felt good. It did get a little sore towards the end of the 4.25 miles but I think I'm finally on the mend and will be able to slowly work my way up to my normal mileage! I don't think I'll be up to a half marathon in April like I had wanted but that's OK - I'll be ready for September's half :)
- Last year Camden lived in these iPlay shoes. He loved them. I loved them - it was a win, win. So this year I ordered these from Old Navy. I got them on major sale so I"m hoping they're just as good as the iPlay ones.
We had a crazy busy but FUN weekend!!!
On Saturday morning I got a quick 3 mile run in - it was raining and cold but I made it (and had zero knee pain so that's a BIG plus!!) Afterwards, Matt went to work out and coach so Camden and I just hung out and played. Later that afternoon my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew came and we headed out to see Daniel Tiger Live!! The boys LOVED every second of it - it was awesome!!
We got home and attempted dinner but the boys were too busy staying up late and playing so we let them play while us adults enjoyed dinner. The boys stayed up way past their bedtimes (as did the adults!)
Sunday morning we played and ate pancakes then headed to a local indoor play place for the kids to run wild. It was a really neat place and the kids had an absolute blast!
After nap, Camden and I went outside to play and get some fresh air while Matt went grocery shopping. We had dinner, put Camden down, finished up our weekly prep quickly, and then finally sat down for the latest episode of Scandal.
And now here we are - Monday. And let me tell ya- our Monday morning was ROUGH. Here's to hoping Camden catches up on some sleep during nap time at daycare today!!!
We made it! It's finally Friday and I am so ready for the weekend. I haven't done a 5 on Friday in a while so I thought I'd finally join in again.
1. We have a super fun weekend ahead of us. Tomorrow my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew are coming up and we're all going to see Daniel Tiger Live! I am so excited and think Camden is going to absolutely LOVE it!!
2. We'd also like to hit up The Strong Museum of Play Sunday morning since it's Superhero weekend there AND Super Why characters Wyatt and Woofster will be there. Another thing Camden is going to go absolutely NUTS over!!!
3. I worked out at home last night. I knew I wanted to work out (OK cross that out - I NEEDED to) but just didn't have it in me to drive to the gym. It wasn't the greatest at home work out but hey, at least I did something, right?!?! My knee is finally feeling better and I am so looking forward to getting outside and getting some runs in.
4. I've been trying to be more aware of how I spend my time. For me that means less time on Instagram and Facebook and more time reading. I read 2 books in the last couple weeks. And now I need some suggestions. What are some good books you've read lately?
5. I think we are going to go to Philadelphia over spring break for a few days. Besides, the Please Touch museum, what else do we NEED to do while there? I'm not sure how long we're going for - probably just 2 or 3 days so we don't need a ton of things to do. Any insight on this would be great :)
I confess - this picture has absolutely nothing to do with this post. However, I feel like a blog from me isn't complete without a picture of that cute little face. I just can't help it - I'm obsessed with him <3
I confess - I haven't washed my hair since Monday, The last three days I haven't gotten up in time to wash, dry, and straighten my hair so I've just been 'fixing' it with my flat iron. Lucky for me I don't have oily hair and you can't tell but I really think I need to get on the dry shampoo train and see what that's all about.
I confess - I'm desperate to go somewhere warm. I really, really, REALLY want to go to Mexico or the Caribbean.
I confess - I've been done with Camden's Easter Basket for a while now...yet every week I buy something more for it. I have a problem - I just can't stop buying stuff. It's too easy and too fun and I know he'll LOVE the things I"m getting. But I have got to cut myself off ha-ha
I confess - I'm ready to chop my hair off. I like my hair long but I'm ready for something different. Plus it'll grow again. So I see a shoulder length bob in my near future.
I confess - I am having a really good time with Camden. Seriously, I love this age. I am soaking it all up and loving up on him every second. He has a legit sense of humor and cracks us up every day - it's hysterical!!!
I confess - I'm really going to miss my one-on-one Saturday mornings with Camden. This is the last weekend of the CrossFit open so it'll be my last weekend of having Camden all to myself all morning. Is it bad that sometimes I don't like sharing him with the hubs?! ha-ha
It's been a WHIRLWIND week to say the least....
So last Wednesday we were hit with a crazy wind storm, that resulted in us losing our power Wednesday afternoon at some point. We stayed at our house that night but when we woke up Thursday we knew we couldn't stay there any longer. Neither Matt nor I had to work Thursday so we headed down to my in-laws for the day. Luckily, they are out of town this month so we weren't intruding on them. So Thursday was a nice, lazy family day and we soaked it up. I had to go into work Friday (which was pointless since we had neither internet nor phone but whatever...) Matt stayed at his parents since he didn't have to work again. But he had plans to head to Saratoga for Friday night/Saturday morning so my mom had to come get Camden (since our daycare was also without electricity and therefore, couldn't take any kids!) After work, I headed down to my parents to stay with them for the night.
Saturday morning Camden and I had a play date with my friend and her daughter - donuts and then the local library. We got home in time for a quick lunch before nap. After nap, we hung out until my sister and nephew got to my parents. Matt got to my parents around 5:30-ish and then we all headed out to dinner. Sunday morning Camden and I headed out to breakfast with my parents, grandpa, and aunt and uncle, while Matt headed to Rochester to do a few things. After breakfast, I packed our stuff up and Camden and I headed back to my in laws. We spent the rest of Sunday trying to stay positive, doing laundry, and trying to figure out the week. Luckily, our day care provider got power back on Sunday which was great for us so we didn't have to figure that out come Monday. So Monday morning I dropped Camden off at daycare and we FINALLY got our power back. It was soooo nice to be home. We spent Monday night cleaning, organizing, re-stocking our fridge, and trying to get our lives back in order. Now here we are...Tuesday and we're in the midst of a crazy snow storm!!!!!!!!! Seriously - it's nuts!! Matt is home from work again today - and tomorrow looks like it'll be another snow day for him!! This weather is just INSANE!!! I haven't worked out in a week and honestly, I'm just ready to get back to our regular life!!
It's been a crazy week this past week and hopefully after this snow storm we'll be back to normal and we'll all be happier!! I am SO ready for SPRING!!
A low-key weekend...just what this hard workin' mama needed. I worked SO much last week - it was awful. I was miserable all week. I cried more than I have in a long time. And I was just spent. So a weekend of no plans was exactly what I needed.
I had to work until 6 Friday and then went and picked up Camden from the Crossfit box Matt works out/coaches at. We made a quick stop at Rite Aid and, of course, I had to spoil my little guy - he pretty much got what he asked for....a new sippy cup, a box of gluten free chocolate cookies, and some plastic Easter eggs. We got home, face timed with my parents, had some dinner, and headed to bed.
Saturday I got up with Camden and snuggled with him on the couch while we watched some Daniel Tiger for a little bit. I headed out for a quick run and as soon as I got home C asked to take a shower (he's obsessed with taking showers lately!!) So I jumped in with him while Matt headed to his box to help out/coach (first week of Crossfit Open so he'll be there more than usual.) So after our shower, C and I headed out for our date. Our first stop - Target. He got to pick out a new toy and also bribed me into buying him a new t-shirt ("because I have to have it mama.") And as we were walking to the registers, we walked past the cards and out of the corner of his eye he saw a card with a duck on it and runs over to it and says "I have to buy this for daddy." And there was no talking him out of it so we bought the card and I realized I'm doing something right. This kid is seriously the sweetest, most thoughtful child EVER. After Target, we headed to the library where we read books and played. It was so, so much fun - Camden and I both thrive on one on one time with each other :)
We headed home for a quick lunch and nap. I actually napped while he did, which was glorious, and Matt spent that quiet time working on our taxes. We spent the rest of Saturday just hanging out and playing. We ordered Mexican takeout for dinner and after Camden was in bed Matt and I just watched some TV and indulged in some adult beverages.
Sunday Camden was up bright 'n' early so Matt got up with him so I could sleep until 7. I got downstairs and almost immediately bundled Camden up and outside we went. We had gotten a little bit of snow overnight so he loved gathering that up and playing in it. He got cold so we went inside and continued to play with the snow inside, burying his animals in it and all that sorta fun stuff. The boys went grocery shopping while I hit up my Barre/Pilates class (which off topic - I am so obsessed with!! I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE it!!!) I got home shortly after 11 and Matt was already starting the week's food prep. Camden was getting tired and cranky so we sat down for lunch but he didn't really want anything to do with it. He was just crying and being whiny, asking for his binky and to snuggle with me. So off to the couch we went and within 5 minutes he was fast asleep in my arms and I was in HEAVEN. I seriously could have stayed there all day with him. And the rest of the day was more of the same - playing, laundry, etc. This mama needed this sort of weekend with her little guy and I could tell Camden did too. There is nothing more this kid loves than his family and just being home with us.
Happy Valentine's Day from our little family to yours. Every day is Valentine's Day with these two. My heart is full - so, so full. These two boys are the light of my life and make me so incredibly happy. I hope your day is full of love, laughter, and happiness.
<3 HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY <3
Oh, and to brag on my hubs. Take a look at my Valentine's Day present from Camden. He was SO excited to give it to me this morning - the cutest thing EVER!!
It's been quite a while since I last posted. Life I tell ya...it's cray - cray!! And since I've been MIA for so long I thought a random update/thoughts post would be good. So here we go...
~ first and foremost, Camden is amazing. Seriously - I LOVE 2!! Sure I could do without the meltdowns but ya know, I was prepared for them. So most days I feel like we have a good handle on those. But in any case, the kid is awesome. He is so incredibly smart...and funny, like really, really funny. He's currently a horrible eater, especially at dinner. It's like at dinner he's just over with eating for the day and wants nothing to do with food anymore. We used to push him but now we're just like whatever. If he eats great - if not we don't stress over it.
He is really into Daniel Tiger and Paw Patrol. He loves his play kitchen (his specialty is chicken nugget soup LOL) His other favorite toys include this farm, Paw Patrol mashems, Superhero Mr Potato Head, and his B. Young brand bus (I can't find it online anywhere. I know my mother in law bought it for him from Target when it was on clearance last year.) He loves to take showers with either myself or Matt. He was doing really good at potty training but he has sort of regressed. When we're home sometimes he'll want to sit on the potty and other times he has not interest. Since he's so young yet we aren't pushing it but do encourage him to use the potty as often as possible. He is also our early riser - usually around 6/6:15. On average he naps for 2 hours every day. He legitimately talks NON-STOP, says the funniest things, and LOVES to sing and dance! He's pretty darn perfect if you ask me <3
~ My work is CRAZY! Not only is it our busiest time of year but we are down quite a few positions. The other Accounting Manager just up and left - no notice...nothing!! So it's been nuts here. The days are long, and stressful, and basically I just feel like I spend my days putting out fires - while also trying to do my actual day-to-day responsibilities. Due to all these changes I was offered a promotion as Director of Finance. Awesome - right? Yes, of course. BUT......I turned it down. The money would have been great - but I'm not at the point of my life where I want all that pressure and even more stress and responsibility. Right now Camden is my life & him and Matt are my priority and where I want to put my time and energy into - NOT work. It wasn't an easy decision at all for me but in the end I know I made the right choice for where my family is and what I want out of life. My little family comes first - no matter what.
~ My workouts have only been so-so lately. On average I work out 4 times a week, which I don't love (I'd much prefer that number to be 5 times a week but it is what it is right now.) I haven't been running because of some knee pain. That has me really bummed out, not gonna lie. I have, however, been taking a Barre/Pilates class on Sunday and am LOVING it!!! The barre portion of the class is out of my comfort zone but let me tell ya - it's no joke. It's hard!! I work up quite a sweat in that class and love how I feel afterwards.
~ This past Saturday Matt competed in a team CrossFit competition out in Utica. His team did GREAT and I'm glad he had the opportunity to do this. And I, of course, loved the one on one time I had with Camden. We spent Saturday visiting with family and friends and it was just a nice day (busy but nice!)
~ I can't really think of much else. I'm sure there is SO much more but honestly I can't even think straight (and it's only 8:15 in the morning!) So with that - Happy Hump Day!!
Christmas is over. All the presents have been unwrapped. My house is back to normal (but dirty still since I haven't cleaned yet.) And we're all exhausted. But we also have full hearts. And made lots of memories. So overall - Christmas 201 was a total SUCCESS!
We spent Christmas Eve at Matt's aunt & uncle's house. We left there shortly before C's bedtime and got home in time to leave Santa some cookies and the reindeer some carrots, opened up a couple gifts (2 new Christmas books), read the new books, and tucked the little guy in before getting to play Santa. I was SO excited.
We woke Camden up at 7:30 and he was so excited that Santa came!! He loved that Santa ate his cookies and milk and that the reindeer ate all their carrots. Santa even left Camden a note!! He had fun opening up his presents - though his favorite gifts were Dollar Tree gel window clings and a Superman figurine - oh to be 2!! After opening our gifts we got ready and headed down to my parents and got there shortly around 11:15. We opened presents - put the boys down for a nap - and then had our family dinner. We headed out and got to Matt's parents' house around 7:45/8. We let Camden stay up a few minutes to say hello to everyone and off to bed he went (though it was quite the struggle to get him to sleep!!) On Monday we spent the day at my in-laws - opening presents, hanging out, snuggling, and just being together. It was a really great day, even though I wasn't feeling 100% since I was so exhausted. We enjoyed a great meal together and left to head home around C's bedtime. He was fast asleep by 7:30 that night and slept until 7:30 the next morning!! Tuesday morning Matt worked out and I got a long run in - then Camden napped for 2 and a half hours - and once he was up we headed back down to my in-laws to celebrate Christmas with Matt's dad's family. Wednesday Matt had to coach the 5:15am class - so he did that and then worked out and got his car inspected. Camden and I slept in until 7:40 (well I was awake at 6 but just laid in bed playing on my phone!) We spent the morning taking our Christmas decorations down, playing, organizing, and just relaxing. It was awesome!!!!!!! Camden took over a 3 hour nap yesterday so I was able to hit up the gym, Target, and get to the post office and still had time once I got home to lay on the couch with Matt for a good 20 minutes!! We spent the rest of the day just hanging out together, cooking a delicious meal together, and relaxing & enjoying the time together. I'm back to work today...Matt is actually at work as well...and Camden is at daycare playing with his friends. Already looking forward to another long weekend <3
Now get ready for a whole lotta pictures :)....you're welcome!
I MUST CONFESS...
That picture has nothing to do with this post. It's just too cute not to share. You're welcome :)
I'm totally 'that' mom I swear I wouldn't be. I give in way too easily too often, mostly because I have so much guilt because I work and don't spend enough time with him during the week. And Camden totally knows it and takes full advantage! But I love him so <3
I'm not done Christmas shopping yet and it's making me SO stressed. Seriously I don't know how people wait til the last minute.
Camden has been waking up SUPER early in the mornings (like this morning it was 5:30!) Any advice for this mama? Even if he goes to bed later than normal he wakes up early. This has been going on for about 2 weeks I'd say. So any insight/advice would be great :)
I bought 10 hands soaps today from Bath & Body Works - yes 10!! But at $3 each I couldn't say no.
This morning I was snuggling with C in bed and out of the blue he says to me 'I like you a lot mommy' Seriously - this kid is so freakin' sweet...he really is. I am so incredibly proud of the little person he is growing into.
Our budget is out of control lately. I am looking forward to starting the new year off on the right foot financially. We need to get back on track and stay within our budget!!
What do you confess today?
With Christmas only 11 days away (say what?!?!) there is still plenty I want to do with my little family. Here's my life of things I want to get to:
1. Go look at Christmas lights. There is a street not far from our house that is AMAZING! We took Camden there last year and so I want to continue that tradition. I think this year he's going to LOVE it!!
2. Bake cookies. Camden LOVES to help in the kitchen so I think he's really going to love helping me bake cookies, frost and decorate them...and of course EAT them :)
3. Pay for someone's order while out (whether that be at a restaurant or Dunkin' or wherever.) We've done this before and I'd love to do it again this holiday season.
4. Watch a Christmas movie with Camden. I hate to admit it but my kid loves to watch videos on You Tube. I don't think he would sit through an entire Christmas movie but I'd like to at least cuddle up on the couch with my little family for a few minutes and watch a little bit of one together.
5. Decorate a gingerbread house together.
6. Deliver some homemade goodies to some of our neighbors.
7. Get a new Christmas book to read together.
8. Go to the store with Camden and have him pick out a toy to donate to needy children.
What's on your Christmas bucket list?
A fun little questionnaire I've seen floating around the blog world so I'm joining...
1. Are you named after anyone? My middle name (Antoinette) is named after my maternal grandfather (Anthony)
2. When was the last time you cried? Last week at some point. I did get teary eyed this morning though - does that count?
3. Do you have kids? Yes - he's pretty much all I blog about :) My son is 2 and the absolute light of my life. To say I'm obsessed with him is just a slight understatement ;-)
4. Will you ever bungee-jump? Pre-kids I totally would have. But now? I don't know to be honest. I'd really have to think about it and talk it out with the hubs. It's not just me anymore to worry about - if something were to happen I'd be leaving a child (and husband) behind and that's scary to me.
5. What's your favorite cereal? ooooh I love cereal let me tell ya - I don't know if I can pick an absolute favorite. I really love Multi Grain Cheerios, Cinnamon Toast Crunch, Life, Fruit Loops and pretty much any other sugar laden cereal on the market. It's one of those items we can't have in the house so we never buy it (except plain Cheerios)
6. What's the first thing you notice about people? This is tough. I guess it's how 'put together' they are - not necessarily from a clothes standpoint but just in general. Does that make sense?
7. What is your eye color? Blue-gray eyes.
8. Scary movie or happy endings? Happy endings for sure - I don't do scary movies.
9. Favorite scents? I have so many but I'd say clean, fresh cotton wins - though lilac is a close second :)
10. Summer or winter? Summer for sure. I love to be outside and soaking up summer as much as possible. Winters are too long around here - I like the first month of it then I'm over it.
11. What's the furthest you've ever been from home? Venice, Italy
12. Do you have any special talents? Not that I can think of right now...
13. Where were your born? NY
14. What are your hobbies? being with my little family, working out, reading (I'd love to do more of this!), and cooking/baking (another thing I'd love to do more often!!)
15. Do you have any pets? A beta fish named 'blub blub' (and no - I didn't name it...)
16. Favorite movie? This is HARD!! I don't watch a ton of movies and I don't like re-watching movies (or re-reading books or anything like that.) I do love classic movies like Grease and The Lion King. I also really love all the Nicholas Sparks movies adapated from his books. I'm much more of a TV kinda person.
It's official. My baby is no longer a baby but a full blown toddler. On 11/12, Camden turned 2. Yes 2!!!!!!!! How that's possible I don't even know. But in the blink of an eye our baby is gone and in his place is a smart, sweet, independent little boy who has a lot to say these days!
Camden was so excited to turn 2. We talked about his birthday for weeks leading up to it. He has been practicing so hard on how to hold just his index finer and middle finger up so he can show everyone he's 2! Whenever someone would ask how old he was going to be he'd say 'I be 2!' very excitedly!! :) We celebrated all weekend long and I think he had a pretty fun filled birthday weekend full of laughter and a whole lotta love!!!!
I'll hopefully get the chance to write a post on his birthday celebrations at some point but today I wanted to do a little Camden update. I don't even know where to begin because there's so much to say - so I'll start with the basics....
At his 2 year well child appointment he weighed 24lbs 12.5oz (13%) and was 2'10.25" tall (45%). Oh, and his feet - his feet have been growing like crazy!! I swear he was in a size 4 for quite a while - was only in a size 5 for a very short time - and now wears a size 6 (and probably won't be in them long!!) He wears mostly 18 months clothes - has a couple 12 months pants that still fit - and wears 24 months stuff too - he's really all over the place with sizes actually.
He is your typical toddler and hardly eats anything. Right now he'd be happiest if we only allowed him to eat applesauce, grapes, and black olives every day - all day. He really loves his 'milkie' too. He also has quite the sweet tooth (that we keep in check pretty well I think.) He LOVES donuts more than anything (hint - he had a donut tower cake instead of a regular birthday cake at his party because that's what he wanted!)
The child talks NON-STOP. Seriously. Matt and I are pretty quiet people so this is new to us :) If he's not talking he's singing or humming to himself. He talks in full sentences and has great manners. He knows his ABCs, his colors, shapes, and can count to 20. He has great number recognition (through 10) and recognizes most of the letters as well. He loves Elmo, dinosaurs, play doh and superheroes (especially Hulk!) He loves to watch short You Tube videos on Matt's iPad while he does his treatments (and would totally sit and watch for hours if we'd let him!) He loves to run and is seriously non-stop all day, every day!! He was officially diagnosed with asthma so we do 2 nebulizer treatments a day. He is fiercely independent - it's amazing and frustrating all at the same time :) But I'm also pretty proud of him for it. He is so incredibly sweet - he loves his people so much. One of my favorite things is when he asks for a 'family hug.' That's where either Matt or I are holding him and he pulls the other one in for a 'family hug' :) He loves it - but I love it more <3
He is very attached to his binky (still only gets it at bedtime and nap time - except when he's being cranky at daycare and then she gives in and gives it to him - argh!) and the boppy pillow. He loves to snuggle in our bed in the mornings. He generally sleeps 7:30 - 7 (though some nights he's not asleep until 8 and there are also plenty of mornings he's awake by 6:30...or earlier!!) He takes one long afternoon nap - at daycare it's 2 hours and at home on the weekends we'll occasionally get slightly longer ones as he plays 'catch up,' He still loves to help around the house - helping make coffee, unloading the dishwasher, helping with laundry, putting groceries away, making smoothies and oatmeal, etc. He is seriously funny these days - has a great little sense of humor and makes us laugh every day!! He loves to hide and play hide 'n' seek (and he's actually VERY good at it - will stay there and be quiet - quite impressive for a 2 year old!) He is so incredibly smart - like seriously. I've said it a million times here but it's true. People say it all the time so I know it's not just us. We work with him a lot at home but I also have to give credit to daycare. They do a lot and he's around some older kids (3 year olds) so he learns a lot from them. He loves babies and can't wait for his new baby cousin to arrive. He throws a temper tantrum like no other but is usually calmed down pretty quickly (we usually have him look at us - we tell him to take a deep breath - and then we talk it out/explain things to him.) We continue to talk to him as if he were 6 rather than 2. We've always talked to him a lot, explained ourselves, etc. Right now he does really well when we say 'Ok Camden 2 more minutes.' And then 'Ok Camden - 1 more minute.' etc He also does REALLY well when given a choice in situations where he is upset or could get upset - well really, we like to give him a choice whenever possible - it really helps him.
Pretty much he's perfect in our eyes and is so incredibly loved!! I never get sick of hanging out with him and just being around him. Being his mommy is by far the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I never thought I could love someone like this - and yet every day my love for this little boy grows and grows.
Camden Matthew - I love you today...tomorrow...and always.
*This post idea is 'stolen' from Amanda because I'm not a real blogger so I have to steal real bloggers' topics.
Home is where my heart is. I love being home with my M & C. Nothing makes me happier than being with them, hanging out, playing, or doing whatever. I'm a total home-body so obviously home is where I want to be and where I am happiest. Add in a super cute and fun little boy and there is nowhere else I'd rather be. When I'm home and C is awake my full attention is on him. With being a FT working mom my time at home is precious so I've really been trying not to stress about the 'not so fun' home stuff (like cleaning) and focusing more on quality time with him and the hubs. C is at such an amazing age and I just love being around him. It's seriously the best <3 I've also been very busy at home with things like planning C's 2nd birthday, Christmas shopping, and doing as many fun activities as possibly. Home life is busy...but fun!!
WORKING MOM LIFE.
I hate it. I hate being a working mom. OK I take that back - I HATE being a FULL TIME working mom - I'd love to be a part time working mom. I really think that is the perfect balance. And I'm so jealous of people who get that opportunity. It's really the best of both worlds if you ask me. Even almost two years into this I haven't accepted the fact that this is my life. It's hard - it's really, really hard - harder than anyone realizes I think. I think it'd be easier if my job wasn't so demanding or stressful. I work a lot - too much - and I really hate that. So this part of my life is my biggest struggle - always has been and always will be. I'll never be a stay at home mom nor will I ever be able to work part time. So I keep pluggin' away and doing the best I can with what I've got to work with.
I've mentioned a few times on here that I've been slacking in the fitness area of my life. I still work out just not as much as I always had. Once I'm at the gym - it's all good. It's just getting there lately that's been hard. I think I've been thinking about it too much. I just have to treat it like any other 'appointment' and just get it done and over with. Related to all this is also the fact that I've been eating like crap. I am your classic stress eater. And boy have I been stressed lately. So not only do I need to get back on track with my workouts but also my eating.
Let's see. I've really been into fish tacos and BLT salad. These are definitely my two favorite meals right now and they've been on our menu every week for the last few months probably. But now that the weather is cooling down I'm looking forward to soups and stews. We did have chili on Monday and it was sooooo good. I am also really looking forward to roasting squash (acorn and butternut squashes are my favorite!) more often. On a much less healthy topic - give me all the salted caramel foods you got. My favorite late night snack has been lactose free vanilla ice cream drizzled with caramel and sprinkled with a little bit of coarse sea salt. I am legitimately obsessed!! Oh and DD - you've done it again - salted caramel coffee - Mmm Mmm Yes Please!!
With the temps cooling down all I want to do at night (instead of working out) is to snuggle on the couch, watch TV, and eat ice cream (see above!) Whenever we get the chance we still binge watch Homeland. I don't even know what season we're on but I do know the last few episodes we watched weren't that good so hopefully that changes. At the gym (ya know....when I actually go...) I've been watching Chicago Med or This Is Us. Watching TV is the only way I get through cardio at the gym...anyone else with me on that?!?!
C is pretty much amazing - I mean I know I'm his mom and all and therefore I'm biased but seriously - he's incredible. He's smart. He's independent. He's funny. He's sweet. And he is quite the little man these days (seriously, my baby is gone...*cue big fat alligator tears*) He counts. He sings. He talks NON-STOP. He is constantly running (in fact I don't think he ever walks these days LOL) He has quite the sense of humor and loves to tease us. He has become quite a picky eater and would eat only applesauce and maple syrup if we let him. He also has quite the sweet tooth and loves going on donut dates with mom and bagel dates with dad. He is obsessed with band aids and typically has at least 3 or 4 somewhere on his body ha-ha Basically he's my favorite and the love I have for him is more than I EVER imagined (and grows more and more every day - how that's possible I don't even know <3)
And there ya have it - a little life update...
So here we are - Thursday. So I'm jumping on the confession bandwagon...
~ I bought a Starbucks soy salted caramel mocha frappucino (no whip) yesterday and it was life changing. Seriously worth every single calorie. And if I were rich and had the money to support that habit daily I totally would!! So, so good!
~ I am still totally lacking in the workout department. I used to work out 5-6 times a week and now I'm lucky if I can force myself to do it 4 times a week.
~ I had a donut date with this little man this morning and it totally made my day.
~ We've had another scary week with Camden and his breathing. He has always struggled with breathing - wheezy, crackly, etc. But if you remember about a month ago we had a REALLY scary experience. When we had gone to the doctor the pediatrician at the office diagnosed him with asthma. But when we went the following day to his regular pediatrician he didn't want to call it asthma. So Tuesday I got a call from daycare that his breathing was really bad again. I took him to the doctor immediately and his oxygen level was down to 91/92. At that point he was 'officially' diagnosed with asthma. So right now he's on an oral steroid and nebulizer treatments with albuterol. Then after that we will have to do a morning and evening nebulizer treatment with a different type of steroid until further notice. Hopefully with us treating the asthma we shouldn't have any more episodes. Definitely scary and I HATE seeing my baby sick :(
~ I am totally obsessed with the jean jacket I got on sale from Old Navy a couple weekends ago. I've worn it so many different ways and would totally wear it every day if I could :) Today I'm wearing it with a fun skirt, a simple t-shirt and my black wedges - perfect for a warm fall day!!
~ I bought these booties. And I gotta say they are not comfortable at all. Like they hurt at my ankle/shin because there isn't a sock there to protect that area. That was my biggest fear with booties and it came true. Am I wearing them wrong? Or is that just the way booties are? Please help!! I really want to wear these more because other than that issue I love 'em - they look great with leggings, skinny jeans, and even skirts and dresses so I know I'd get a lot of use of them.
So it's almost a year later - but I just realized I never did a post about C's 1st birthday (what sorta mom am I?!?!) So here ya go - better late than never, right?! :)
We went with a ball theme and kept everything simple...I think it was a pretty darn cute birthday party if I do say so myself. C did great the entire time and enjoyed his cupcake (with a little guidance from mom and dad!) I'll let the pictures do the rest of the talking....
Lately, I've really been trying to update my wardrobe and get some new things. I rarely buy myself clothes - and when I do it seems like it's always a lounge/comfy shirt or some plain ol' t-shirts. So I really want to invest in some key pieces that I can wear not only to work but also on the weekends. I purchased a pair of booties (may need to exchange for a smaller size though) and have plans to buy some over-the-knee boots, as well as a jean jacket, military vest, and some colored skinny jeans/pants.
Here are a few of my favorite fall inspired outfits (all found on my Pinterest board!)
Dear working mom,
I see you getting up day in and day out trying to find that balance.
I see you trying to do the best you can and it never being quite enough.
I see you trying to be the best employee you can be AND the best mom you can be. But you can't be both at the same time. But you'll keep trying.
I see you struggling with the guilt of being a working mom. I understand what it's like when you want nothing more than to be there for your child 24/7....but sometimes you just can't.
I know how hard (and SCARY!) it is to drop your child off at daycare every day. I know the heart break you feel when you go to leave and your little one is crying and there is NOTHING you can do about it.
I feel your exhaustion, no matter how many hours of sleep you get.
I understand how guilty and sad it makes you feel when you constantly hear 'well I didn't have to deal with that - I was home with my kids.'
I know how sad you feel when you think about how much you're missing out on because you work. I know that's a difficult pill to have to swallow.
I know how lonely it can feel at times. It seems like everyone else around you either stays home, or only works part time, or has more people around to help them. But you're not alone.
I see you wipe your tears away quickly and paste a smile on your face as you go into work each day. You are strong and do what needs to be done.
I know how overwhelming it is for both parents to juggle a stressful, demanding job that requires a lot of hours.
I know how heavy the weight of the world feels on your shoulders - trying to do it all - trying not to fail - trying to just keep up.
But listen. You're not alone. I feel you - I understand you.
You're doing the best you can - every minute of every day. You're not perfect but you're trying. You're trying to keep it all together. You ARE a good mom. You ARE a good employee. You ARE a good wife. You ARE a good person. And, most importantly, your child LOVES you unconditionally. What you're doing IS enough.
So keep on truckin' along. Keep your head held high. And keep on doin' what you're doin' (oh - and don't forget the coffee and wine...LOTS & LOTS of coffee and wine!!!)
Another weekend in the books. Seriously, why do the weekends fly by? We are trying to soak up as much summer as we can - and of course, our almost 2 year old keeps up on our toes every second :) There is never a dull moment in our house..
By the time Fridays roll around we're all beat. I picked up a pizza on my way home for dinner, C went to bed, and then Matt and I spent the evening watching Homeland. We are seriously OBSESSED!!
Saturday morning I got up early and got my 6 mile run in. As soon as I got home Matt left to work out so C and I just played and hung out together. As soon as Matt got home we all showered up and headed down to my parents. C took a nap on the way down so he was ready for a fun filled day. My sister and brother-in-law were away so my parents were watching my nephew. The boys had lunch together (well attempted - ya know...toddlers and eating...I'm not sure how much either actually ate) but anyways, after lunch we headed to a local petting zoo. Seriously, C was in HEAVEN!!! He hasn't stopped talking about it. We had so much fun and both boys got a pony ride!! If you ask C what his favorite animal was he'll say 'yak' (yes, there was a baby yak there - soooo adorable!) My nephew fell asleep on the way back to my parents house so we ended up just heading home, which was good because C ended up taking another nap on the ride up. We ran a couple errands then headed home in time for a quick dinner.
Sunday was a doozy of a day let me tell ya....C was up really early and was CRANKY!! Matt also woke up with pink eye so our Sunday was off to a great start :/ Matt headed to urgent care and by 8am C was in his stroller and we were off for a loooong walk. He ended up falling asleep for about 20-30 minutes. While Matt waited for his prescription he grocery shopped so he got home around 9:15-ish or so. Then he headed back out for open gym at his Crossfit box. C and I played, went to the park, and he helped me with some food prep and laundry. He has always loved helping us out and I think it's the cutest thing ever - he truly loves being a big boy and helping us out. He was still pretty cranky throughout the morning and really just wanted to be held. Once Matt got home we fed C an early lunch and he was asleep around 12:20-ish. He ended up sleeping until 3:20 which gave Matt time to do some work for his classroom and do some other things around the house & for me to finish the food prep AND get to the gym!! We had some ice cream for a little afternoon treat and spent the rest of the day playing and being outside. We grilled up some burgers for dinner and enjoyed dinner outside (oh wow I'm going to miss eating outside once the weather turns cold!!) C was in bed early - we finished up some stuff for the week - and Matt and I were in bed shortly after 9 (yes, we're old....) And that's a wrap...another weekend in the books!! What did you do?
We had quite the busy long weekend. It was a lot of fun but let me tell ya - we're all exhausted.
Saturday morning Matt and Camden joined me for the first 3 miles of my run. It was perfect running weather and I loved running with my family. I continued on for 3 more miles and Matt headed home with C. After our run, we all got ready for the day and headed to Springdale Farm. This is a local farm owned by Monroe County but ran by a local not-for-profit. Camden had a BLAST seeing all the animals - he was in his glory let me tell ya!! :)
We then headed to my parents for a cookout with them and my sister. After dinner we headed to Dansville to watch the balloons. We got home, I cut Matt's hair, and whipped up two desserts for the next day's festivities.
On Sunday we were up and getting ready pretty early. I cut Camden's hair and then we were off to Matt's parents' house for their first annual family reunion. It was an absolute blast!!! Camden LOVED being around all his cousins and second cousins and EVERYONE and especially loved the bounce house and the pool!!! You should have seen this kid - he had the best day EVER!!!! I don't think I took any pictures that day because we were all too busy having fun!! We were all exhausted and as soon as we got home Matt and I settled in for a couple episodes of Homeland.
Monday Camden woke up sleepy and miserable. We had plans to go to the lake and hang out with some of Matt's Crossfit people but decided against it since Camden was clearly off schedule and needed to just stay home. He took two good naps that day and by the end of the day was acting more like his happy self. During his afternoon nap I went to visit my grandpa in the hospital and then came home to take a nap myself since C was still sleeping (big shout out to my hubs for doing all our food prep for the week while I was a lazy bum and slept ha-ha) We just spent the rest of the day at home getting things done and playing.
Hey ~ I'm Renée...just your ordinary, 30-something Accountant, new mommy, wife, runner, foodie, & Pinterest addict! Welcome to my newest adventure...stay awhile...look around...and keep comin' back!