You win some. You lose some. Well let me just tell ya - we've been losing a lot more than we've been winning. The ebbs and flow of life as two working parents. It's hard. And even 20 months into this I still haven't figured it all out. I can't quite find that balance of working a stressful, demanding, exhausting job (that quite honestly I hate!), being the best mom I can (and want to be!), finding time to work on my marriage, staying fit, and finding time for me (oh, I forgot to add in keeping up with the house and family and friends!) Honestly, I don't think I'll ever find that balance - and that's a hard pill to swallow. How do some people do it?!? I need to know their secret :)
And toddlerhood...it's no freaking joke. Matt and I always joked that C was such an easy, perfect baby that toddlerhood was going to be payback. And honestly some days that is totally true. Don't get me wrong - C is still an easy, happy baby most days. But lately we've had some really rough days - the not so glamorous side of kids that people don't talk about. And I get it - the last 4 days he hasn't been feeling well. I understand that and that of course plays a huge part in the rough days we've been having. But he's also your totally normal toddler who gets frustrated, has temper tantrums, doesn't know what he wants (even if he thinks he does), and clings to his mama like no other. So - yeah some days are hard. Like really, really hard. It's amazing to see your tiny newborn grow up a little more each day. For me, that's been one of the most amazing parts of being a mom. And yet on these hard days I remind myself of two things - I WILL miss this one day and it's totally normal. And the funny thing about kids - when you're are at your breaking point...just when you're about to go over the edge your kid will stop, look up at you, give you the biggest smile and bury their head into your shoulder for the sweetest hug and all else is forgotten. It's amazing how they have that ability :) And you go on to fight another day and know you wouldn't give it up for the world (just don't ask me right now if C is going to be a big brother anytime soon LOL)
So there ya have it - the not so glamorous side of things. You know me - I don't sugar coat things and I tell it like it is. And yet being a mom is my most favorite thing EVER!!
Hey ~ I'm Renée...just your ordinary, 30-something Accountant, new mommy, wife, runner, foodie, & Pinterest addict! Welcome to my newest adventure...stay awhile...look around...and keep comin' back!