I'm not a confident person. Never have been. Never will be. By nature I am independent, humble, and your classic perfectionist. I've never been proud of myself, even when I've accomplished some pretty cool things in my life. Even though to most people these things are pretty significant, I always view it as someone did it faster, better, or sooner than me - there's always room to do better so whatever I did just isn't good enough in my eyes. (I know, I know - being like this causes a lot of anxiety in my life and I feel like I'm always carrying a heavy weight on my shoulders...big issue I deal with.) But anyways, when I found out I was pregnant my number one fear was being a good mom. I was so worried I wouldn't know what to do. I was so anxious my motherly instincts wouldn't kick in...that I wouldn't be 'a natural.' I was constantly afraid of being judged.
These last almost 11 months have been trying to say the least. Being a parent is no joke. Being a working parent is even more challenging. But lately I can confidently say that I can take a step back and actually say I'm proud of the parents Matt and I are. I'm proud of my son. I'm proud of the way we've done things. I'm proud of our parenting style. I'm proud at how happy, sweet, healthy, independent and well-adjusted our son is. I'm proud of how we're doing things. I'm proud of what we've accomplished. I'm proud of the decisions we've made in raising a child. I could brag quite a bit here (because isn't that what mommies do?!) but I'll spare you all :)
In all honesty though, Matt and I talked a lot about how we wanted to parent and how we wanted to do things. And some of those decisions aren't agreed upon by a lot of people. But that's OK. Matt and I are confident in our decisions and we stand up for them and our thought processes. I'm more than happy to explain to people why we do what we do so they can understand our point of view and can see why we chose to do certain things. I don't always agree with what others are doing and I may think my way is better (for lack of a better word) - but so long as the child is happy and healthy - I don't care what decisions the parents make. There's so much judging going on when it comes to being a parent - let's all just be supportive of one another and the decisions parents make. You know the saying - it takes a village to raise a child - and it's the truth! But no matter what....our kid is clearly thriving - he's super smart, he's happy, he's healthy....he's absolutely perfect. And that's all that matters <3
Hey ~ I'm Renée...just your ordinary, 30-something Accountant, new mommy, wife, runner, foodie, & Pinterest addict! Welcome to my newest adventure...stay awhile...look around...and keep comin' back!